Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Epilogue


He woke up with a big fat drool linking his lips to the black-tiled floor of his home. Drowsily, with the slits of his eyes clamped intermittently at the ends by solidified eye matter, he got off his bed, stretching his arms, in effect creating a number of overlapping cracking sounds of limbs shifting gears and springing from disuse into activity.

He had had a big bad dream, only a faint shadow of which lingered in his mind’s eye. It was the stuff of fantastical flights of fantasy: the world breaking down, strange alien figues engulfing him, screwing with his mind and such. Bullshit.

The EPUU-ian teaching of dreams and their irrelevance came rushing back to him. He reminisced his initial lessons from Arbitron as a child, when he was lectured at length about the irrelevance and randomness of reveries, of the arbitrary mind process that ‘spat out’ or ‘spilled over’ some seemingly perceptible but eventually inconsequential chunks of information into his sensory-perception system. The bottom-line was that dreams, nightmares, visions and such were to be overlooked at the onset, and to discern or scrutinize or hold them in observance would invite nothing but misery. And that was that.

“Coffee, black,” Aseem fed his aural response to Arbitron by the vibration of his vocal cords and the simultaneous compliance of his jaw muscles, tongue and mouth; all of it happening, to the delight and amazement of the detached observer, at the very same time as his calf muscles, femurs and countless other localized bodily systems allowed him to walk across the floor, cover about four yards, and disappear behind the enclosure that was the excretion bay.

The day went on.

FIN.

Chapter 7: All Nightmare Long


Black was as black as it previously had been. The walls were their usual cocooning self. The sickening temporary glisten had all but worn out, leaving the world draped in its usual dimness. Aseem was mortified with utter perplexity. Questions popped up in his mind in billions, and he only barely managed to un-think them before the Arbitron could catch a whiff of something being amiss. His fingers trembled and his red eyes welled up with tears of alienation and severe misgiving. Here he was, right from infancy and childhood to adulthood, passing through each phase of the EPUU-ian life cycle entirely without incidence - until today. Everything seemed grotesque, nightmarish, off-centre, plain damn creepy. It was as if he was stuck in an endless bad dream, going over a single excruciating day over and over again.

The memories of earlier that day had turned dim and distant, and he had to strain hard to think back to how he had been brutishly fooled by the Arbitron to commit sin, and had been suitably flogged as punishment. All was justified in the natural order of the world as prescribed by the Unnamed, he repeated to himself in consolation. Maybe this sudden shock of brightness had also been an endurance test of some sort, a means to check his durability in times of hardship. His chain of thoughts was interrupted by a timely Arbitronic announcement:

“Thou have successfully passed thy First Surprise Franticness Examination, maintaining commendable control over thine thoughts and exhibiting a sound sense of alarm in the hour of (simulated) crisis. Similar toeing of the EPUU-ian line in future shall lead thee to the fruits of Eternal Bliss, after thou are freed of the mortal coil and the distractions of worldly indulgences. Peace be upon thee and the Holy Unnamed.”

Fade to silence.

He stood rooted for a minute, assimilating the symphony of absolute silence that evoked a flood of imaginary acoustic inputs in his mind; screechy, cacophonic, jarring, overwhelming sounds. The embalming effect of Arbitron’s announcement had lent a perceptible stillness to his surroundings, a stillness that carried the sweet aroma of normalcy. The effects were therapeutic.

His internal anxiety wafted away, blending with the calm outside. His muscles eased, his eyes opened to their full extent (for the first time in hours), and he felt relatively at ease. There was still, however, a part of him that dreaded any more unpleasant experiences to befall him. His rejoice was, hence, duly restrained and his eyeballs scurried up and down the entire length of the world, looking out for any aberrant visual stimuli. Life was better now, but he wasn’t keen on counting his eggs before they hatched.

Maybe he was right in doing so, because any amount of preparation could not have muffled his explosion of emotions at what transpired next.

Many things happened, all at once: a sizeable chunk of the wall to his left exploded, accompanied by a blast so awfully earsplitting that Aseem toppled over to the ground right ear-first. In a fit of absolute incredulity, he closed his eyes and huddled on the ground in an infantile self-hug. A pungent smell hit his nose, the very smell of hostility and alienation.  If he’d have the heart to open his eyes and look around, he’d see rubble lying around in a heap, and smoke billowing from where-was-once-the-left-wall-of-the-world.  

A gazillion thoughts scampered in his mind in the timeframe of a split second. It all made perfect sense. The rapture had been clarioned by the EPUU as the last straw for the correction of an over-sinning mortal. It had lingered over Aseem like the sword of Damocles, and today the final frontier of Unnamed’s tolerance had been breached for good. The 666th Verse talked of it with justified pomposity:

“Whenever doth an errant mortal like thee commiteth himself to excessive sin, not to be corrected by any Arbitronic hook or crook, I must, in person, strike upon the creation with severe vengeance, level it down to ruins and start afresh with humanity. Those that tarnish my name and anoint it with the muck of their hearts deserve no less than my most furious ire, and shall forever be captivated in the deepest, brightest of Hell’s rungs…”

It was all over, the world was breaking down; the walls were being razed to the ground, collapsing on themselves. His lips trembled to make hurried, stuttered invocations:

“O GREAT UNNAMED, FORGIVE YOUR FAITHFUL ONE! O EXALTED THEE, MY HEARTIEST IMPLORATIONS TO YOU, SALVAGE ME FROM THE BRIGHT UNKNOWNS OF HELL AND THE OUTSIDE! I, WHO HAS REMAINED YOURS FOR THE LIFE, YOURS TO BEGIN WITH AND RETURN TO…”

His mad, deplorable chants were interjected by a much louder, stronger voice; the only voice that had ever fallen on Aseem’s ears except his own and Arbitron’s.

“OPEN YOUR EYES, COMRADE!” It boomed over everything else. “Open up now, be the human you were born to be.”

“I think he’s in shock, sir,” said another alien voice, shriller and higher than the previous. “May I?”

Aseem lay heaped where he was, mortified by things beyond his imagination. He was surely hallucinating now. A pair of feet shuffled across the besieged world, making their way towards him. He whimpered and scowled at the fear of whatever walked to him, clamping shut his eyes to the maximum degree. The boot-steps grew louder in their approach, and instincts made him cover his torso with his hands. “Get away fro me!” he feebly managed.

The high-pitched voice spoke from very close by, “Fear not, comrade. We’re on the same side. You’re free of your captivity. We have salvaged you from the fucking I-don’t-know-whats, but only just. You need to come with us, and pronto, we do not have much time!”

“Wh-who…what are you? Y-you all?”

He heard the footfall very near him, and shirked back violently when he felt a cold touch on his eyelid. He jerked it off madly and went into a spasm of violent acrobatics.

“WE ARE HELPING YOU, COMRADE! Comply for God’s sake!” growled the voice from afar.

He knew very less of what happened immediately after that. He could feel two pairs of hands struggling to keep him pinned to the ground and make him open his eyes. Their touch felt oddly human, as did their voices and gaits. When finding it helpless to struggle anymore, he resigned himself from all motion, repeating the incantations to the Unnamed in his mind over and over. The alien duo lifted him off the floor and made him sit up, propped against the common corner of two walls. His hands and ankles were bound by a thick, coarse wire or string.

What he saw when his eyes were forced open was a first: fellow humans. The room was unnaturally lighted, probably from the bright outside of the world, peeping in from the hole in the left wall. The two faces that looked upon him were ashen and worn out. They were wearing identical ragged, soiled black jackets and a tight black lower garment to match. They also wielded a sleek black metal contraption each, what looked to him to be some sort of weapon. Their hands clasped the posterior end and index fingers curled around a trigger. Their eyes were twinkling with an odd glow and lips curled upward in a faint smile. Aseem felt threatened but did not close his eyes again, more out of fear than anything else. One of them had a slightly odd look to him, so much so that it scarcely could be called a ‘him’. Its hair was longer than usual and tied in a thick bun at the back of the head. It had two uncanny bulges where its chest should have been, a different body posture than its partner and a strangely erotic look about it.

“Sorry for the bad treatment, but we had to do it. We’re here to take you away, out of this confinement. You gotta come with us” it spoke in its high-pitched voice, while the man at the back looked on with impatience.

“Who-who are you? What the fuck is go-going on?”

“We’re humans, just like you. I’m Sanskriti, he’s Shimit.” It extended its hand forward. Aseem ignored it. It retracted it.

“Look here: you have been in captivity here for more than two decades, since you were born,” it went on, “We are one of the last remnants of the only human resistance on the planet. Our race was taken over by The Evolved Ones about 30 years ago. We’re a fringe military outfit, fighting back against their superior weaponry and mind control. They took away our children to experiment on us, know us better, study our behavior, make fluffy pets out of us, hold us on a fuckin leash for all I know.” It gasped for breath, its face full of emotion and redness.

Aseem remained silent, deadpan. All of this was gibberish to him.

The other man spoke up. “Long story short, you’re one of those they’re experimenting on. They’ve manipulated your mind to test their hypotheses on how the human body reacts to shit. Our hackers been intercepting with their mainframe for a few hours, trying to get to all of the prisoners down here. We even managed to flash our Human Resistance Manifesto in these cells for a few minutes, you might have read it.”

Memories of the walls turning blinding bright came back to Aseem, making him shudder.

“The marking on the outside of your door reads ‘Religion Specimen #12: Aseem’. They’ve been fucking with you all this while, man, taking you away from the one true God, inventing their bullshit around your life. I know coz I’m a survivor of this fuckery, I was once in one of these shells, running around in circle like mice, reacting to base, carnal desires. I came out of it, the hard way…”

He stopped and sighed a long sigh, putting his palm on his forehead, as if stifling a bad memory. He was shaken back into sudden alarm by a sudden blast outside the room.

“WE’RE WASTING TIME WITH YOU, COME WITH US OR DIE HERE!” barked the man, gesturing his partner to get up and get going. Suddenly their actions seemed tense, alert, vigil. They shuffled around impatiently waiting for a word from Aseem.

Aseem had nothing to say. He felt comfortably numb and distant, eyes unfocussed and ear latent to the sudden sounds erupting near him. He felt nothing, registered nothing.

“Die, you fool! We’re outta here!” said the man, and started making his way out of the box with its fellow human in long, measured strides. They seemed to stop short in their tracks all of a sudden, and a thick screen of faint-green smoke ascended from the ground with a hiss. Aseem felt dizzy and his head felt heavy. Unable to keep his eyes open, he relaxed them and lolled his head to the side

The last thing he remembered before collapsing to the ground were two dull thuds around him, and one of the humans’ eyes fixated upon him, ajar with terror of the highest order.

Then, nothing. 



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Sunday, July 8, 2012

Chapter 6: Torture

[NOTE: I owe it to my handful, but faithfully anticipating readers: I am sorry for the delay. I was alternating between being too lazy, too uninspired and too overworked to write the next chapter the whole of last two months. But now that I am in the 'flow' of things, I hope I can wrap this up before long. Hang on, people, the finale will be worth the wait.]


The first of his two scheduled mental exercises was finally and – although he wouldn’t accept it – to his immense relief, over. It had been a draining, hard-on-the-ass field day till now. Hardly could he bring to mind any whacking that had been half as unexpected as this one had been. But it was all justified in the higher order of things; after all, the holy Unnamed worked in mysterious ways (not to mention painful and ruthlessly unforgiving, he un-thought). Love and compassion was for those sons of Ardhamanas who adhered to the erudite word of the EPUU with absolute, unflinching belief. For all actions that dared to stand out at non-conformist were dealt with the iron hand. Like sheep herded onward the rich pasturelands by men of god in the guise of peasants, such was the task entrusted to the Arbitron. It promulgated  'उत्तम मार्ग': 'the perfect way', the only way to lead a righteous life.

In all truthfulness, Aseem felt ashamed of his failings as a human being, his inability to follow in the hallowed footsteps of his forefathers: the immediate next-in-line of the venerable half-Unnamed.

The original man had passed down his form and shape to his progeny by means of miraculous reproduction, or  'चमत्कारिक प्रजनन'. The ability to bear an offspring was not said to be a pleasant experience, nor was it expected to happen to anybody who hadn’t attained the officially prescribed age of leaving human shape and journeying to the heavenly abode. Naturally, Aseem wasn’t exactly looking forward to it.

Prompted by Arbitron, he trod towards the Mental Work 2 bay, which was to occupy the better part of his remaining schedule for the day. Placing himself in a well-fitting corner that had emerged out of the wall, he covered his ears with a device that lay on the base of the opening. This piece of equipment had two rubbed-cushioned circular ends, one for each ear. A U-shaped ‘bridge’ connected the two earpieces, curving over the curvature of the head of the wearer. (The most apt substitute for it to be found in modern parlance would be a ‘headphone’.) This was worn, as per EPUU-ian parables, as a means to focus on the inner sounds the human body radiates when the individual is deep in thought or meditation.

His solitary agenda for the next 30 minutes was to generate a constant humming sound, close his eyes and concentrate on whatever thoughts flitted through his mind while he was at it. Every 20 seconds or so, he would steal long but hurried mouthfuls of air, punctuating the hum that filled his ears, brain, thoughts, everything.

With the passage of a few minutes, the only perceptible sensory input he received was his self created hum, overriding every other external sensation. This uninterrupted tranquil enabled him to do what EPUU called ‘singularizing’ his thoughts to nothingness. The first thought that came to him when he attained equilibrium with the humming medium he had created was darkness; pure, unadulterated, undiluted, blackest of black, serene darkness. Darkness that pervaded all fear, all misgiving of the relatively pallid outsides. The Unnamed was salvation, the Unnamed was darkness. And then there was Mary Jane, and Arbitron, and the hot cuppa he gobbled down every morning: all mere distractions from the path of true austerity and realization of the self. Trifling, sinful digressions in the path of moral rightness, planted in the path of man by the forever-scrutinizing Unnamed. The world was enough, the black ends of the world were too far displaced from each other, too far for any comfort. Something had to
SCREEEECH!

His stream of consciousness was broken suddenly by…he didn’t know what exactly it was. Suddenly there was light all around. From the safety of his closed eyelids, he could see his vision suddenly turn blood red. He dared to open his eyes and closed them almost instantly. It was sheer horror. The walls of the world were no more black; instead, they displayed multitudes of images of…he couldn’t fucking make out! The split second window of blinding vision he had braved had registered nothing in his mind, save for a sudden blast of dreaded whiteness. He shielded his eyes from direct brightness with his arms, and maintained the posture for about 5 minutes, waiting for shit to happen. Nothing did. Bewildered, terrified and helpless, he shouted and shouted, and then some more.


“HELP ME, ARBITRON!!! HELP ME, UNNAMED! WHAT SORT OF SHIT TEST IS THIS, GET ME OUT OF THIS DAMN INFERNO!”

Nothing budged. Reduced to a cowering bundle on all fours, Aseem began to weep. He wept profusely at first, tears rolling down from his hard-shut eyes. Then he cried with uninhibited shrieks and wails and whimpers and sobs, his body convulsing with the pain and burden of sudden light, of newness and of change.

And then, with characteristic suddenness, the brightness issue was resolved: the walls went back to their homely blackness. Aseem knew this because his vision was no more marred with the bright redness of the inside of his eyelids, it was back to black. However, try as much as he might, he could not get his eyes to open up for more than a quarter of an hour after normalcy had been retained. And when he finally did, much to his surprise, absolutely nothing had changed.


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Chapter 7